Thursday, June 24, 2010

Thoughts for Thursday

Another week down, 18 more to go.
One more that could take my breath away.
Today I am 19weeks & 2 days.

One week and 2 days from our loss date with Carter.

I know every move I made during that week. Have questioned every moment of it. None of it will I even come close to doing again. Part of me wanted to visit my former co-workers today, but its to0 close. Nothing can be the same.

This is a different pregnancy I am different person now, we are a different family. I try and tell myself daily, But still the fear is real.

So for the next 10days or so I may be a recluse, sitting on my ass watching re-runs of Greys, but most definitely trying not to think. Praying harder then I ever have before.



sara said...

I can't even begin to imagine how stressful this would be. I hope the next few weeks fly by and you have nothing but boring moments watching Grey's. I'm thinking of you and praying along with you!

Mom to 2 boys +? said...

Hang in there Brandee! I know this is a really rough nerve wracking time for you. Keeping you and this precious little one in my thoughts!

Anonymous said...

Focus on two of the things you do best .... writing and scrapbooking. When Caila was born you gave Bob and I a book to complete - a history of our early years. Why not a scrap book for Chih Fu of his journey to come home to his new family.

Love you all! Praying hard!